Baby

Last Tuesday I went to see my doctor because according to my bathroom scale I had lost about seven pounds and I had been really, really sick. It was kind of intimidating because it was only my second time going and my husband couldn't go with me because he had a class. But I went, and I spent almost half an hour alone in the room waiting for her to get to me. Luckily I had one of my textbooks to read for homework, otherwise I would have gone crazy.
Finally Dr. Hansen came into the room. We talked for a few minutes about me being sick. She suggested eating more, which would help with my weight and the nausea. Then she asked if I wanted to try to hear a heartbeat. I laid back on the chair and she used the tool to listen for a heartbeat. It felt like forever waiting for her to find it. She finally did, and held it for a few seconds. I thought I heard it, but wasn't really sure. Then the baby must have moved because she lost it. She tried to find it again, but didn't have any luck. She assured me that she heard it so there was nothing to worry about. My chances for a miscarriage dropped to about 2% since she heard it. I was so relieved.
So today we went in for my monthly appointment and so Dr. Hansen could do a follow-up from the last visit. We talked for a few minutes. She offered me some medication but I told her I was starting to feel better and that maybe I was coming out of the "morning sickness" stage. Then we decided to listen to the heartbeat again. She had a very difficult time trying to find it. My heartbeat was so loud that she decided we wouldn't be able to hear it today. She told me she wasn't worried, but decided to do a quick ultrasound just to make sure everything was alright. We moved into the other room and I got ready for the ultrasound.
It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. We were able to see the image of our baby up on the screen. As soon as the picture came up we knew everything was alright because it was waving its arms and legs all over. We were also able to see the image of the heartbeat. It was so cool. Seeing the baby on the screen just made my pregnancy more real. Before I just felt like I was sick because I had symptoms similar to the flu. But now I realize there is a little human being growing inside of me. I wish words could explain exactly how I feel but they can't; or at least I could never articulate them well enough. I am so excited now and it somehow has made everything that I have gone through so far worth it. If I am this excited about an ultrasound I can't imagine how excited I'll be in 6 months when I am actually holding the baby in my arms.